When I am in the middle of a physical yoga, asana, practice – teaching or taking – I find it easy to “find the yoga”. I am able to be in the moment, channel my positive energy and I see the world as this magical place. I stop looking at everyone and everything around me and I become enthralled by the experience I am having in my own body. Practicing yoga allows me to reconnect with all the things I find beautiful in this world. It’s not hard for me. I just zone in, and there I am. Blissful.
And then I get in my car and I start driving, or I get to work, or I run out of gas, and the bliss quickly disappears and life becomes more of a struggle again. I am no longer able to just focus on myself in the moment. The outside world begins to pull me in a million different directions and I cave. I collapse under the pressure of traffic and stoplights, and stress at work, and dirty dishes in the sink, and a million other relatively insignificant occurrences in my life. Until…
I start to breathe. Of course I am always breathing. I don’t mean the kind of breath that supplies air to your lungs; I mean the kind of breathing that brings light into your heart and draws the darkness out. I breathe and I remind myself that life is just one long asana practice. I will struggle. I will have “bad” days. I will sometimes feel like I do not belong here, now.
But then I will become aware.I will step outside of my body and realize the struggle I am experiencing is something I have created all on my own. I will remember that there is so much beauty in the simple surrender!
I vow to surrender more – Not to give up, but to offer up control. I vow to breathe more, and to remind those around me to inhale the light, the joy, the good, and to exhale the darkness, the pain, the sorrow. I vow to bring more of this bliss I find on the mat out into the world and to share it with those around me.
What’s your vow?